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I'm not supposed to be here, I'm really not. I'm using the "guest" computer at a hotel in Moline where I'm spending most of the day sitting on my arse so that I can have lunch and the evenings with Sweet Hubby. Now mind you, I love this hotel to sit on my arse in. It has a large indoor area that has a waterfall-fountain in it, so it is very pleasant. But I usually am not on the computer.
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Two things sent me here, however: 1) a book I was reading; 2) an email I got.
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The book is a Tolkien biography that I bought with a Barnes & Noble gift card from Pippinfan. It's by Michael White. Very good!!! I liked it very much. It has a bit more depth, in some ways, than the Humphrey Carter bio that I've had for ages. He talks a bit more about some of Tolkien's shortcomings, making him a bit more real, while still keeping him a wonderfully interesting and basically good man. It's part of the "Critical Lives" series put out by Alpha Press.
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The email was totally unforeseen.
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It comes from a guy that my daughter dated while in high school. He's the only son of a "good Christian family" who we knew from our church's family camp. For about two years my daughter and I were out to their farm to visit most every weekend as I liked the mom a lot and Sarah liked the son and sort of liked the daughters. He ended up being Sarah's first sexual partner, which, weird as it may seem, I knew about at the time. (We're very close, my daughter and I) What I didn't know until later was that he hadn't been very kind nor gentle with her. (no rape just not nice) No details here, just he had 90's music and probably some porn as a teacher. Sarah is fine, it still rankles but she is fine. We haven't seen him in nearly 8 years and the friendship I had with his mom also faded away so I haven't even seen her in nearly as long.
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Then today this email comes.
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He somewhere along the line has become a Marine. Last we had heard he was doing well at a music school somewhere in Minnesota - he is a fantastic bass guitar player. He is a Lance Corporal now. He's going to deploy to Iraq in July. He wants me to call him. He says he doesn't check his email very often. He wants me to call him.
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I'd rather email. I can hide better in writing, one's voice can give so much away. I'm hoping that all he wants to know is if Sarah has a boyfriend and that can easily be dealt with - she's most happily engaged. I won't call him until tomorrow at the soonest. (we use a phone card so I can call from the hotel here without it going on our bill). I am feeling skittish. Prayers and good thoughts appreciated :)

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rosamundeb
Mar. 2nd, 2006 03:20 am (UTC)
To heck with him - email him. And mention that you're surprised to hear from him.
grey_wonderer
Mar. 2nd, 2006 03:52 am (UTC)
Such a position to be in! I am very glad that you don't have to see him face-to-face. I do know that you can handle this though. You seem a very strong person and I am sure that whatever you say, it will be honest and if he is honest with himself and has matured at all, he may surprise you. You will be in my thoughts but I simply know that you can handle this phone call. After all, the hard part is past. You handled the knowledge of what went on and both you and your daughter got beyond it.
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